The feeling of loosing the person that once saw you grow up.
The person that was in and out of your life.
The one whos addiction overpowered him.
The one you wish to hate but you love dearly.
The one who says happy birthday a week after your actual birthday.
The one you cry for at night; hoping to see him at least one last time.
The one you miss and wish he was by your side.
The one you think about every holiday and know where ever he is he probably doesn't think about you.
The one who left all the burning scars, like throwing fire on a fresh wound.
The one thats moved on to a better life and a better wife.
The one whos affections were as rare as a dog with two tails.
The one whos promises flew away with the wind. Like a plastic bag on a windy day.
The one you wish would step up and be the father hes never been.